Paulo Coelho wrote a book I love called The Alchemist. I’ve been referencing this book for at least a year now in my quest for self improvement. One of the things that I’ve been thinking a lot about is the fact that I’m a Type 2 Insulin Dependent Diabetic. I’m only 34 and have been battling this disease since 2004. While my numbers are coming back okay, the fact that I need medicine to keep my body functioning sent me into a wild panic the other day.
I know it’s been while since I’ve written anything. Bad phoenix. I’m going to begin to chronicle my road to recovery, the challenges, and the desires to want to self improve here.
My wedding is in 146 days and things are starting to come down to the wire. One of the things I’ve really taken into consideration is the fact that I don’t want the testimony that I waited 32 years to be connected to my husband only to die on him. I want his eyes to light up at the thought of maybe having children. I want our lives filled with travel and leisure and dreams and kingdom building. I don’t want frequent doctor’s visits, pill bottles, loss of limbs, lack of interest in sex and/or depression to be what I bring to our marriage.
So, I’m going to do what I gotta do. Step 1, join the gym 2 miles up the road and walk my way to freedom. Step 2, forgive my past choices and be thankful that they led me to where I am today. Step 3, truly fall in love with myself again and again and again.