So, in exactly 2 more days Tony and I will celebrate 2 months of marriage. It has been a wonderful couple of months growing, planning, dreaming and deepening our friendship.
While sitting at a park today and watching Tony fish, taking in the sounds of the birds, the water and the sunlight, I begin to think about how so many of the things I thought I would be or wanted have change since this little round man entered my life. Ten years ago, when I first entertained how much I wanted to be married, I’d saturated myself with so many magazines and black statistics that said women who are smart, or older, or not paper thin are in the category of women who don’t get married. I realized as I looked at my husband, that I’d really thought that I was going to be one of those women.
Now don’t get me wrong, I enjoy the beauty of my creativity and independence and carefree lifestyle just like the next woman. But, I can’t lie. I wanted a life partner to share this journey with…like forever. Meshell Ndegeocello exclaims on her record Mass Transit “At the end of the day, nobody wants to be alone”. I realized that more honest words hadn’t been spoken than those for me. The sentence, in fact, was so piercing that I began a daily proclamation to the Universe to send me my life partner.
I didn’t think that he was going to be a little round white chef. However, I did hope that he would love a chubby singing poet who dreams a lot, cares too much and wants to save the world. I did hope that he was honest and faithful and didn’t judge and didn’t hit girls. Man, has he stunned me by meeting that criteria. I am forever grateful and richly blessed.
In that, I’d like to dedicate the rest of this year of blogging (or coming back to blogging) to my new marriage, my new music, my new book and my new businesses. I want to share the wholeness of a woman who is discovering herself through the new love in her life and the newly founded love of herself.
I hope that it’s a journey you’d like to take with me.
Attract LOVE and HOPE,